I’ve had conversations with countless people who are struggling with the same experience as I am. The term “boredom” is almost derogatory, that somehow myself or anybody else don’t exactly have the right to say this because there’s literally cures for it: Get out and do something! Sounds easy enough, but inexplicably complicated at the same time. I do get out and get something done, but somehow it still isn’t enough.
I’ve said in conversations with the people I’ve opened up to with regards to this dilemma, that it’s probably a “millennial problem.” They’ve been quick to deny this observation. Apparently, it’s not generational to experience this. I’m pretty sure our parents and grandparents probably went through the same thing. I’m hoping it’s a phase, not exactly basing on age but depending on a point in your life where it is normal to be at an ennui.
It is very challenging to overcome. To be honest, I still don’t have an answer that at this point, I’m about to start giving up on finding ways to get over it and just let it run its course. I know it will end eventually, and I will worry about another thing I’d be experiencing, at another stage in my life.
For the longest time, I think I’ve filled this void with travel and friends. But that gets expensive very quickly and although it gets your mind off of your lethargy, as soon as you’ve finished doing something or being somewhere, you’re just back to where you started.
I remember a phrase that my grandmother always used to describe me. It translates into: “your butt getting ignited if you stay still for way too long” She always wondered why I couldn’t just appreciate being at home, and why I always had to be somewhere. Honestly compared to my sisters’ adventures, I’d say I was pretty tame, but I did oftentimes feel restless if I stayed “still for way too long.” If I had a lot of free time, I had a lot of opportunities to overthink even the most trivial of things. This usually ends very emotionally.
At this moment, despite being very busy “juggling” my career, my friends, and my travels I still somehow have a lot of time to spare. Those little lulls are the bastards that are causing me to go down an emotional rabbit hole. I try my best to avoid said lulls, but on the days that it’s a little impossible, I’ve gone back to doing arts and crafts or writing. I’m not sure if it helps completely but, it’s something else instead of inactivity, and I’ll take that small step. I’m sure a lot of you can relate because as I’ve said, I’ve had the same exact conversation about this with a couple of different people. If you know a way to get out of this mindset, I would love to hear them.
I’m finally going on another trip next month so #FindGizel will resume shortly. See you again soon!!