I have now officially moved to an entirely different and completely far country; and this is not even a metaphor or something, I have had a few weeks to let it sink in but it has not actually happened yet.
I’ve left quite a lot of things back home that I would very much have loved to have brought with me, and this list includes not just material things, but humans too, and if the thought of bringing them here with me would’ve been short of impossible, I’d like it if I could at least have had closure with them. I never said proper goodbyes to everyone I loved, I suck at goodbyes and I hate it. I’m trying to move on with my life. It is not an exact invitation to forget about the past, but it is somewhat convenient that you get through the process a thousand miles away.
And that “process” includes me being left here alone at home bingeing on Netflix re-watching Friends, because hey, how else could you cope being away from your actual friends and family?
This is, a “Friends”- themed narration of my exact feelings before and after I moved:
When I realized I was stuck in a place with people I don’t like and a job that I hate:
Then I finally decided to grow some balls and left:
And when work people tried to get me to stay:
Then I saw myself back home doing exactly what I did when I decided to leave and find a job:
Something is seriously wrong with me:
Then I’m lost again going through the quarter-life crisis, having absolutely no idea what to do next…
Then when news came about me finally getting to leave the country and starting out a new life with better opportunities:
And then it finally sinks in:
That you’re leaving..
All you’ve ever known…
And everyone you’ve ever loved…
But you know that this next move is for you, and it’s gonna make everything okay.
On the plus side, it’s a good way to start over.
Then you get to the new place:
But you’re all alone…
And everything is new:
And you start missing your friends:
And you can’t find a right time to talk to them because of the freaking time difference
And you see them making new friends:
But they call you, and you’re happy again, and you just miss them so much..
And you know you’ll still have them no matter what
So you don’t need to get scared about this next chapter.
Because they’re just a call away..
And well, all you have to do is face it head on.
Get to know the place:
Okay, actually START..
You’ll be okay.